這首歌唱的就是Gilbert O'Sulivan自己的故事,因為孤單,所以自殺對他好像是件很自然輕鬆的事情。糾纏他一生的孤單感覺,其實是來自父母親。可是其實他也有女朋友,只是心靈的創傷,讓他無法太投入在男女關係中。這首歌曾得三座葛萊美獎。
作者十三歲喪父,他爸並不是好爸爸,但是喪父這件事,仍在他身上留下難以癒療的痛,他連知道自己父親好不好的機會都沒有。
Alone Again
原唱者:Gilbert O'Sulivan
發行年:1972
In a little while from now
(不久前的剛剛)
If I'm not feeling any less sour
(我並沒有覺得比較好)
I promise myself to treat myself
(我發誓,這次一定要對我自己好一點)
And visit a nearby tower
(所以,我去看看附近的塔)
And climbing to the top
(我爬到頂端)
Will throw myself off
(然後跳下來)
In an effort to
(這樣子的話…)
Make it clear to whoever
(對那些想了解「悲劇」是什麼的人…)
Wants to know what it's like When you're shattered
(他們就可以長知識了…)
Left standing in the lurch at a church
(我站在教堂)
Were people saying, My God, that's tough
(有人在說:「上帝啊,我的人生真是困難」)
She stood him up
(她又放了我鴿子)
No point in us remaining
(但其實,她對我也不重要)
We may as well go home
(於是我們就回家)
As I did on my own
(就像我常做的一樣)
Alone again, naturally
(孤單,自然而然地…)
To think that only yesterday
(這些,都好像昨天一樣)
I was cheerful, bright and gay
(我超高興的,光明、又high)
Looking forward to who wouldn't do The role I was about to play
(很期待,我可以變成一個不是自己的人)
But as if to knock me down
(但是,一切好像又打敗我了)
Reality came around
(現實再次找到我)
And without so much as a mere touch
(只是輕輕一碰…)
Cut me into little pieces
(我就被斬成了碎片)
Leaving me to doubt
(我還在懷疑)
Talk about, God in His mercy
(這世界上真有神、仁慈與愛嗎?)
Oh, if he really does exist
(哦,如果祂真的存在)
Why did he desert me
(那為什麼遺棄我?)
In my hour of need
(在我需要他的時刻)
I truly am indeed
(我真的很需要)
Alone again, naturally
(我又是孤單一人,自然地…)
It seems to me that
(對我來說…)
There are more hearts broken in the world
(這世界有太多的心碎了)
That can't be mended
(而且無法癒療)
Left unattended
(沒有人關心)
What do we do
(我們能做什麼?)
What do we do
(我們能做什麼?)
Alone again, naturally
(你能做的,就是一個人,默默的孤單)
Looking back over the years
(回首往事)
And whatever else that appears
(不管腦中出現的是什麼)
I remember I cried when my father died
(我只記得我爸死的時候,我在哭)
(註:他的爸爸對他並不是很好,在他十三歲的時候死掉)
Never wishing to hide the tears
(我很慶幸,自己當時沒有忍住眼淚)
And at sixty-five years old
(我媽65歲的時候)
My mother, God rest her soul
(上帝終於讓她休息)
Couldn't understand why the only man
(她無法了解,為何她唯一所愛的人…)
She had ever loved had been taken
(也會被上帝帶走?)
(註:其實他爸爸對他媽媽也不是很好,由此可見他的母親是個很單純、弱勢的女人)
Leaving her to start
(讓她必須重新開始)
With a heart so badly broken
(帶著心碎的心)
Despite encouragement from me
(不管我再怎麼鼓勵她)
No words were ever
(沒有什麼好說的了)
And when she passed away
(當她離開的時候)
I cried and cried all day
(我哭,我哭了整天)
Alone again, naturally
(因為,這次徹底地,我真的是一個人了…)
Alone again, naturally
(我還是一個人…)